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I was looking through my past photos on FB and realised that last year I went for a few 21st bday celebration :P Heh. Well no surprise, since half of my friends (or more) and I were 21 of age last year. Lala. Just saying lor. And I think I look better with fringe lol that's beside the point. Well now gonna be halfway through the year! How fast, isn't it. I was just drafting for GSK Orange Day 2012 article (yes I have to write an article for GSk magazine) and then well right now I was just thinking about being in GSK as an intern for 5 months already...! Though 6 months of IA is relatively short compared to perhaps 22 or 58 years of living, but I guess it doesn't matter the duration- one can learn alot in a short span of time, and in contrary, sometimes in like 5-10 years one learn nothing at all! Ok can't be, bound to learn something. Ok I think I am crapping sighs. Should be looking at FYP list then I digress until blogging ._. Ahhhhhh ok bai

I wonder if it were me, will I be so excited..

Human tendency- the need to compare. And many times the grass is greener on the other side. So much of 'how I wish...', but reality ain't how you wished for sometimes.

Lamenting. Feeling pitiful and sorry for yourself. Wondering why you don't deserve something. Want to start anew elsewhere. Leaving the baggage and issues behind. Because you cannot deal with it (with your own strength) and want to run away.

Give up too easily. Saw that now.

But I realised we don't have to be the best. There's only one best for each category. What are the odds that you will be? And not being the best doesn't mean you fail.

The situation you are in now, the environment that you grow up with... Of course there is better. There's always comparison. For example you like your pen but there is a better one out there. Haha poor analogy if you feel that you are using the best pen in the world. =P

Just now I was listening to this podcast by Pastor Greg, and he mentioned how it is easy to praise and thank God during good times. But when bad and trying times arise, now, will you be able to rejoice wholeheartedly and thanking God in those circumstances?

I recall something about we don't have to feel thankful/joyful, but we can just be. However, there are so many reasons to be grateful to God about, knowing and thinking about those reasons might naturally translate into feeling :)

Like how He cares and knows every single issues we are facing.
He welcomes us into His arms even when we are undeserving, and just as we are, broken as we may be.
He is in control of ALL situations, whether we feel it or not. And how wonderfully assuring it is that we don't have to deal with it in our own strength :)
He has His purpose for our current lives.
And the list can go on :)

After listening to Jayesslee's testimony of their mother, I'm inspired of how in love their late mother was with Jesus! And also their unwavering faith and boasting in Christ Jesus :)

Truly thank God for what He has taught me through experiences, and indeed, be patience and pray :) Cos running away ain't the way and shouldn't be considered an option at all.

Shout and shout and shout. I should be ashamed. There's so much anger and indignance, oh God have mercy.

i realised that in school, when you have a classmate you dislike, you can just hope that next year you won’t be in the same class as him/her. And when school changes (to sec/ JC), if he/she is not in the same school or class as you, you are relatively safe.

But at work, if the person you dislike is your colleague, then all the best to you. As you have to see that person everyday [being your colleague], you have little chance of avoiding. If you want to go the extreme, you can change to another department, another job, etc .

We can see that in both cases, there are still chances of encountering the person you dislike. You can’t avoid for life (unless you migrate or perhaps moving to another part of the country might help). Although God says to love your enemies, it seems especially hard and counter-natural to do just that. Sometimes that is an area that we wrestle to obey God in. And right now maybe I’m feeling that way :|

I suppose that is why i try not to have anyone i dislike [or dislike me]. Because avoidance is so effortful and encounterance (i know there’s no such word) is inevitable. Sighs. But making the first move takes courage and some sense of thick-skinnedness. Rah. So hard.

So easy to go along with the flesh and just leave the relationship as that <=] but thats not healthy and ungodly.

“This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruits, showing yourself to be my disciples.” John 15:8

Jesus Christ said that!

Ok abrupt end here.

There is a hope that lifts my weary head,
A consolation strong against despair,
That when the world has plunged me in its deepest pit,
I find the Savior there!
Through present sufferings, future's fear,
He whispers, "Courage!" in my ear.
For I am safe in everlasting arms,
And they will lead me home.

"...his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is the same as the mighty strength he exerted when he raised Christ from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms, far above all rule and authority, power and dominion, and every name that is invoked, not only in the present age but also in the one to come. And God placed all things under his feet and appointed him to be head over everything for the church, which is his body, the fullness of him who fills everything in every way."
Ephesians 1:19-23

Because God is mighty and able :>

Thank God for being faithful :) Indeed He listens to prayers and is never far :) Actually I ain't sure whether I should say thank God for answering prayers, because I don't know what is happening now is due to answered prayers or just by His will it happens :) Or maybe it is His will that I pray about it, so in a way it's like answering my prayers? Haha, I remembered asking Shawn about this before...

So anyway, IA has been rather fine! :) I still remember when I first started out everytime I'm given something to do I had like a sense of importantness cos I'm doing something lol... But now when I'm doing stuffs it's like mundane and expected of me, no special feeling whatsoever. But I'm glad it's like that now :D

My colleagues are nice and fun-loving bunch of people, teasing here and there hehe. They're helpful too :) Thank God for blessing me with colleagues so nice because I know not everyone can enjoy this.. <=) So must be appreciative for what/who I am blessed with!

Actually in this IA I realised that God really didn't withhold His grace and love for me :) Like even the shuttle bus is near my place, there's people whom I can go to night classes with, I can eat with either colleagues or interns, the people are helpful, the toilet is clean [hehe], I can do both onsite and desk bound duties, the vending machine is free hahahaha ok la as in the point I'm trying to make across is that I am thankful for the environment I'm placed in and people I'm placed with! :)

And even though it might not be smooth-sailing in the future I hope that I can maintain the same attitude of thankfulness and reverence for God :) Or even more! :)

Also embarked on the bible reading plan with Shawn, manage to keep to it so far by His grace! :) In Job I learnt about God and His wonderful creation of nature :) It's such great honor that the Creator of the Universe, the Dictator of nature and man and animals, reaches out to save me through Christ! :) He is so great, and I'm just a puny little insignificant figure in His great big universe, but I'm dear to Him!

Ephesians 5:1-2 Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children, and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

Can never truly grasp full understanding of God's love and His ways as He said in Isaiah 55:9 As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.

:)

Oh anyway I wanted to say that in GSK one of the equipment [reactor?? cooler? Forget liao :X] they have has the logo/brand 'Christ'!!! :OO Actually I think I saw before somewhere too, but it's like whoa! :D

Today and yesterday I received compliments and felt that the right attitude to taking the compliments is to acknowledge God's goodness and not to let my head swell because of that. Must always remember that what I have comes from God Himself and it is He who equips me with all good works that He wants me to do.

Ephesians 2:10 For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

And also not to seek man's approval and compliment! I think this is very important to note, that we are not doing things for self-glorification, but that in us God should be glorified. I'm slowly learning and understanding all the big ideas for myself, thank God for spiritual growth in Christ. :)

Galatians 1:!0 Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ.

Alright, shall go do my stuffs liao! Praise the Lord for who He is, and what He has done :) God's people, Praise God! ;)