KAIXIAN =))

I sounded like I was boasting but that wasn't my intention -.-' I regretted it the instance I asked the first question. Argh.

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I had such a wonderful experience at SM3 camp today =))

Initially it was abit awkward! No group leader to lead, so the 3 of us members tried to like get them to settle down and sit in circle! My chinese ain't as good as I hoped for, I guess. Or I thought. If I even think that my mandarin's good in the first place -.- How's shameless can I get I really don't know.

So anyway, THIRTEEN names to rmb!!!! :O Horrifying because some of them spoke quite softly and maybe some fast also, can't catch their names. Also, their name MUST include surname one!!!

Very different from Singapore =) But yep interacting with them on the way to Food Hunt and even during Food Hunt was good =) They can be really cute! And they ARE really cute =DD It's nice to converse with them and know more about them, or even helping to answer any queries they have =]

I realised I haven't interact with PRCs anywhere in school; in my course or out. Ok maybe I did alittle, but it wasn't... totally voluntary I guess. Really really thankful for this opportunity to know them as persons, as friends, maybe! =D

They are just like us, only channel 8!!! And actually they are more mature than us during that age [I would really think so o.0]!!!

Like half of the guys in my group are so tall o.o They covered the group leader then I can't see him no more! Harder to do headcount also when they are all towering ._. Maybe the food better in China. Heh.

Learnt more about their country- like how the living standard's somewhat the same!!! And what the cost of HDBs is cheaper here [HOW?! I THOUGHT very ex one]. And that maybe their schools don't have this thing call CCA, so if they play sports it's like just a group of friends??? Of cos it doesn't apply to all schools there la I not sure.

And the biggest uni in China is err, 4 times bigger than NUS, maybe? And alot alot more.... It's just so refreshing to hear from them!!!! They're so nice and polite then offer seat for me!!! =OOOO Call me what 'xue jie', it's so formal and too much respect already! :x Heh.

Enjoyed pretty much everything except the debrief part, but I know it's a good time to reflect since the day is still freash in our minds. Just that it's getting late and all....

Thanks Johnjohn for driving us [Shawn Zoe moi] back! :D

Okays I should bathe soon, now munching on crackers. Lala.

Just hope that Talentime preparation will be good. And that they all have fun. I'm somewhat stressed about this cos I gotta choreograph dance.
And stressing over leading worship on 4jan but yep I should submit everything to God.
Thank Him for everything today, and that I got all my modules so I don't need to bid again or what! Thanks for His grace =))

Nights!~

Dearest Father,

Thank You for this day :) Thank You for sending Jesus.

And Father, though my family and relatives are all against me, I will stand firm, because I know that Jesus is the truth, the way and the life. Their hearts are hard and closed :( But Father I know you can do the impossible.

So I want to commit them into your hands, Lord. That You will speak to them in Your own good timing and through Your means.

Joyful and Hopeful because of You,
Your child

Yesterday I bought a chopstick for a certain kind of hairstyle (chopstick bun). However I can't get it right even after watching hair tutorial and trying it!!! Like 200 times I do till handache liao.

But yay just now miraculously it succeeded! Though I need to use a clip at the end luh. Don't know isit because my hair not long enough o.0 Not long meh!?! Heh.

So anyways, now I know how to do two hairstyles- chopstick bun and fishtail! :D

Fishtail braid.

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Today was rather chillax at home. Did chores at my own pace, nice! Randomly thought of Bel, went her FB seeseelooklook. Then around evening she called!! :O :O Like whoa so qiao!!!

Her exam just finished, like my bro. Speaking of latter, he lectured me just now. Cos he happened to know that I don't do tutorials before tut. And what else... So yep chided me bad =(

Sigh yep I know I only have myself to blame. How will I ever put in my best? Studying is frustrating. Suxs.

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Argh.

Ok don't know what to say already thxbai!

:((

Can I just stop here? Or not I'll just drag my feet across the sand.

Brought cousins to A Fruitcake Christmas musical at church yesterday.

Really quite an experience, and I really appreciate the opportunity to spend time with my cousins =)

And yay thank God =))

:))

Back from dance camp. :)

I guess I don't fit in, or I didn't make an effort to fit in? Don't know luh I just felt rather indifferent. In the process of understanding myself o.0 Sometimes I still can't.

Haven't used comp for four days! That's quite long I think. Heh.

Oh I wanted to blog about this (saved as inbox draft in phone somemore):

I don't know how truth this is, but dancers are generally perceived as dao/arrogant. I suppose in ballet dancers have to project themselves that way? Like, chin up, long necks, straight back with stomach and butt tuck in. Those kind la. Like haughty.

*shrugs, Don't really know how to say it. But ya when I first entered Dance Ensemble I was so stressed and fearful and intimidated by the dancers there. Everyone looked so pro! And unapproachable. It does seem quite aloof there.

Thankfully I have Tze Lin =) And when I get to know the people there better through dance camp and Evocation or weekly tech class, the stress level did decrease luh.

Can't totally blame it on dance or being a dancer, that I see and do know of people whom are not exactly very friendly? I'm sure you can find people of that anywhere perhaps in tennis or soccer or school luh.

And for this dance camp I suppose I never put in much effort to talk to people, especially the seniors [my batch and above]. Maybe now, some people might think I'm the dao and aloof one.

But even if I seemed dao it ain't intentional. So this brings me to my main point that even though during dance class or something a particular person might seem distant, that might not mean it's their true self. They might have reasons to be seen like that? As in for me I think I'm actually quite chatty/nonsense/loud one leh, as in normally I'm like that right! But in dance camp I was really quiet and kept to self like half the time. I do get to know some freshies! I did talk to a few.

I really got attempt to!!!! But I guess some people.. The frequency ain't the same so it's harder to talk to them =\ Sigh!

(Saw alot of 'I' in my post, so self-centered =\)

Me believe that what makes a commitment more enjoyable is the people whom you share the time with. And if it seems that one doesn't feel that he/she can click with the people there then... Guess the commitment, even if it's an interest of that person, might be an unhappy one.

Thank God for the freshies I talked to/ get to know. They are really friendly[ier?] people and makes dance camp more bearable, I suppose :)

Maybe I should change my attitude to be a more pleasant person to be around with? Tze Lin got say before about how she behaves depend on the kind of people she's with. I thought I would be the same me, constant with varying people. But nahhh evidently I'm not. I'm also like that.

Rahhhh ok I want to sleep liao.

Me: (in loud shrilling voice) DADDYY?! Where are you! (chinese)
Daddy: (in study room) Here luh.

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Me: (in loud teh voice) DADDYYY!!!
Daddy: *laughs*

Ok this is quite a meaningless post just that I like to keep daddy-ing my dad :DD

Woke early for FTL and today's lesson was more enjoyable than the first, perhaps because it's a different instructor. =)

Was sleepy when making my way to dance class. I thought no students come you know, because it was 11:45am already [time of my class] none came o.0

But they were all late la, lol.

Anyways I was there early, so idled in the room, browsing the attendance file... In the past there used to be so many students. Then bit by bit they quited they left
:( Sighs. Oh wells I think I'm jinxed leh o.0 Like normally it's in my class then the number will diminish one.

After thatttt went JP cos mama there. Oh I waited like close to an hour for the JP shuttle bus (because I don't rmb the timing alr), in the end went to take the train.

Talked to mama about Christianity it was like one of the longest talk we had la, I think. Becos we don't usually talk about religion and stuffs one. (Correction: We don't usually talk about anything I guess, period) She's now more open than my dad. They taking turns to be against-y isit. Lol.

I'm back to being sleepy T_T Oh oh I want to watch Despicable Me again!!!! SO CUTTTTEEEEE. Want to watch Monster Inc also. Ahhhhh cutie pies ^^

Isit a female instinct to be drawn to cute stuffs o.0

Ok going to bathe I hope. Feeling sticky.

Oh ya dance camppppp T_T I not so into dance already leh how =\ Why like that huhhhhh... Quite reluctant for camp also ='( No no cannot like thatttt sobs. But I just can't seem to gear up for dance camp :( Sadness.

What else huh. I'm like typing whatever that comes to mind. But I'm sleepy ok bathe time ._. Byes :]

Back from Singapore Students' Bible Conference (aka Regenerate Camp for the NUS students). Quite a learning experience + a different kind of camp style altogether from the usual orientation camps I went to.

Throat feeling rather weird though so I want to hit the sack. Byess!

Am going for Regenerate camp today till 9Dec.
Might have OG outing on 10dec.
I'M FREE ON 11 DEC? :O Yay!!! Hopefully no tech class, can chillax at home. Oh I just change my FTL 1.02 slot to 11 Dec instead. But afternoon still free phew.
13- :))!
14-17 Dec got Dance camp. Somehow not very enthu about it.
18 Dec- watching play at church!!! Although uncle agreed about letting cousins come I still fear and worry abit =\ Hopefully all goes smoothly that day!
20 Dec- FTPract then visit Anna~
24 Dec- Christmas carol @ NUH and Musical at Johnjohn's church!
25 Dec- CHRISTMASSSS
Got FTE somewhere between the two dates o.0
30 Dec- SM3 hor? I don't rmb leh:X
5 Jan- FTT!
8 Jan- SM3
11 Jan- SCHOOL STARTS?!!?!!??!?!

Ok I felt rather surreal now. People gone for AnnTIC! No contact for 6 days... Ok hopefully camps will be good!

Enjoy your hols! Jiayou for exams! God bless=)

I'm super tired but I have to:

1) Pack for Regenerate camp tmr
2) Iron at least half the mountain of clothes
3) Fold ALL the clothes (I got a shock when I switch on my room light, that scary pile of clothes is a nightmare)
4) Bathe
5) Maybe gotta wash dishes (Ya I very dumb go and offer cos my mama so nice to cook palatable food)

By tonight.

You know actually I wasn't really looking THAT forward to hols cos like Bao said it's not much (for her is really not much :X Poor thing!). I want to just slack and stone. Two weeks later, maybe got chance of doing just that.

SIGH. Ok no use lamenting, must channel it to action.

O_O I will survive. Barely though x.x