Xianz2

2012-01-05T23:58:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year!

I think I might stop blogging for good. :]

2011-12-15T00:33:00.002+08:00

Haven't blog in a while huh! I realised I always start with the same kind of introduction heh. Well right now I'm listening to preschoolers' christian songs! Hahaha, thanks to Bao, I am substituting her as a JSS (Junior Sunday School) teacher for the whole month of December :P Hahaha not sarcastic thanks okay is really thanks, because this 4 weeks of teaching will aid me in making a decision whether I want to be a JSS teacher next year.

Right now I'm still not sure :X Got two more weeks to decide. =]

Another thing that I have to decide is regarding dance commitment! On both weekends. I think I abit sian of teaching dance leh :\ I don't know why like that. Will continue to pray about this!

Welllllll! Ok bai :P

2011-11-24T15:34:00.002+08:00

Sometimes when I felt like saying a lot of things, is when I said nothing at all. Sighs, so indignant! But what can I do? And how I hope that I can look to my Lord and Saviour and be consoled instantly, but not every time will be that case. Remember the grace and forgiveness that were first given by Him, that it should overflow within me to others as well. But no! Sinfulness still gripe my heart every now and then (ok maybe quite often???), tempting me to temper and quick judgment! How I hate you O evil one! >=(

But God, only You will I look to, when all things fail, when people disappoint and anger me, and be reminded how I have fallen short and am unworthy of Your love, but You love me anyways because of Your great mercy! And though sometimes I felt bounded in sin, I know that You, the One who is beyond and sinless, hold me securely in Your hands, and nothing can separate me from You :)

Thank You God! :)

Ok 3132.... Jiayous!

2011-11-22T14:10:00.002+08:00

I'm quite curious: Before my time, what do people get distracted on when studying??? Nintendo? PSP? Or like the electronic brick games... Now with phone and internet and iPad all that, it's so easy to be distracted when studying.

2011-11-17T16:04:00.003+08:00

If you think about it, it's quite amazing how we have finished one whole semester and now is reaching the end (which is prep for and exams la). At the beginning of this sem, have you thought that you would reach this stage?! No I haven't!

I guess the 'after exam' is what I sought after and am really anticipative about :D Heh. Sudden randomness while reading my text haha.

So must study hard to make the sweetness of holidays even sweeter! I hope the present KX will heed this though o.O A while ago she was thinking about drumlets ._. Maybe I'll go get it later....

Ok jiayou ons, people! Rather than thinking how much more to go, think of how far you have come and marveled at it! Truly by God's grace so praise Him! :D

2011-11-07T11:59:00.001+08:00

Why ~~you~~ I mood no good?

:((((

Sighs

2011-11-01T15:00:00.001+08:00

These feelings keep repeating itself.

How can I change it?

Oh God, help me!

2011-10-30T23:48:00.003+08:00

The matter with me is that I have a test tomorrow but I choose to spend the last bit of my time browsing the net and looking at stuffs rather than on my test subject.

Great.

2011-10-21T00:02:00.000+08:00

Don't know if I uploaded this here before!

2011-10-19T23:14:00.002+08:00

Something can change, if you truly want it.

Just that you might not think Jesus is the solution. But why don't you try? I'll be willing to share with you..

2011-10-19T01:06:00.003+08:00

Haven't blog for awhile... Did think of blogging but there seem to be this invisibly high activation energy to blog ._.

Well, a few more weeks and the semester will be coming to an end. Can't wait :)

I just want to thank God for being real in my life :)) And also for His one and only Son who died for my sins as well as yours. Thank You Jesus, that because of your work on the cross, I can live again :))

Hmm things haven't been going real smoothly for one of my dearest friends~ I don't know how to encourage you! But I do want to.

I guess it's really like, in moments like this, when times are trying, things are tough, it is really an opportunity to praise God as well :> To return to the cross. You know, God might just want you to trust Him and have that little bit of faith.

He replied, “If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be uprooted and planted in the sea,’ and it will obey you. "
Luke 15:6

Of course, it should be terribly difficult, an utterly not conventional to praise someone when predicaments flood you. But yep, looking at God's big picture, He weaves all the events of your life into a beautiful pattern, and for His good purpose. Today for the daily verse it is, "Our God is in the heavens; he does all that he pleases" (Psalm 115:3) We know that we have a God who is in control of EVERYTHING~!! How comforting is that? =))

It's true that must as we want and hope to be in control of every situation and matter, we can't. But we can be assured that our heavenly Father is in control, and He will see us through. Seek and you will find! :)

In moments like this.. I just want to praise you, Lord!

All to Jesus I surrender,
Make me, Savior, wholly Thine;
Let me feel Thy Holy Spirit,
Truly know that Thou art mine.

All to Jesus I surrender,
Lord, I give myself to Thee;
Fill me with Thy love and power,
Let Thy blessing fall on me

2011-10-08T07:49:00.001+08:00

Today is a day God has made, I want to rejoice and be glad in it! :D

Lol long time never wake so early liao, feel like doing alot of things but don't think there will be time!

0750

2011-09-28T21:37:00.002+08:00

Haven't blog for awhile now! :) Well today I napped loads :X Didn't hear my alarm ringing <=( But I'm grateful for the rest! Hopefully I will be charged to continue revising for 3421.. Though I feel like there's not much time left =l

Ok I don't have much to say actually, and I have to bathe soon! Tata now, hope your day be blessed! :)

2011-09-18T01:58:00.001+08:00

I guess it reminds me what people in NS might do to someone they don't like.

Thank God for His grace and mercy today and everyday :) :)

2011-09-04T22:53:00.000+08:00

Good things are bad at inappropriate/wrong time.

2011-09-03T22:35:00.004+08:00

The ability to breathe

I think for most of us, breathing comes naturally. Perhaps the only time we feel that we need to catch our breaths is when we climb flight of stairs (uhno unfit :X) or exercise. That's when we breathe hard as our bodies need oxygen badly.

I recall that when I was perhaps in upper primary/lower secondary school I find myself breathing longer and deeply breath. That point of time, it dawned on me that I used to breathe short quick breaths and was unconscious of it. I was thinking is it because being a kid, one is small so less time needed for oxygen to travel round the body. And that the amount of oxygen intake during that short quick breaths is adequate for my scrawny body then.
So when I had to take longer deeper breaths, I was worried that something's wrong with my body.

Thankfully that worrisome thought was gone after a while. I figured that maybe 'cause I was growing up so need more oxygen per breaths lol.

Breathing is so natural that we do not have to constantly will or remind our body or nose, 'hey man, breathe, breathe!' There's analogies used to describe something being as natually as breathing. So you can see how much we do not pay attention to it. Not that it's anything wrong la. No one will chide you if you didn't give thanks to have the ability to breathe, or even when you fail to notice/ appreciate that ability.

Why am I out of the blue talking about this? Because I just have an encounter which seems like breathing is not natural to me.
It is like if I don't purposely take air into my nostrils my body's corrective mechanism will not kick in like it normally do. Then after a short while I feel deoxygenated. Right now I'm quite conscious with every breath that I take, in case I forget to breathe. Do you have that kind of experience?

I'm thankful that I'm quite a normal person, that I'm born without defects (I think). Imagine needing a tube or machine to help you breathe, that's quite a tragic isn't it. I'm so fortunate to be normal; I know there are people out there who are ill and need support to go through their daily routine. So thank God! =) Need to start being more appreciative for the lil details in life :)
Btw it doesn't mean that one is shortchanged when they're born with defects. Because God has a plan and purpose for every single of us, and He does provide for our needs :) So glorify God even more, and see how His perfect plan unfolds in your life :)

2011-09-02T23:49:00.003+08:00

Empty yourself, and then the power of God is able to fill you! :) He will provide :))

Glad for the date today! I see applications of what I've learned of His Word :)

2011-08-31T21:03:00.002+08:00

Blessing the listeners with his singing.
Indeed, amazing grace from God :))!

2011-08-30T15:01:00.003+08:00

Well hello there :) Happy holidays to u! Thank God for yet another opportunity to sleep in =) =) However, I foresee that I might not have such luxury in the near future.. =l Unless this Saturday I'm not going for Playmax thing luh. Have you considered going as host? Training's this sat, 930-12 =) Next week is the actual event and I didn't get any of my friends to go. Nevertheless, I am still anticipating leading one group of youths to play and have meaningful fun next Saturday! Oh nos I just realised something.. =l Ahhh hope everything will work out fine! :l

Ok right now I'm suppose to be catching up with my notes and tuts.. Hope that it'll be a productive day =] Oh I want to go jog also! Another hope for weather to hold up fine... =)

Change me O Lord! Transform me to be more Christ-like at home :) :)

God bless my friends! Ciao~

2011-08-27T23:27:00.000+08:00

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wondering heart.

Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I?
That the voice that calm the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

O Lord, thank You, that I am Yours :))

2011-08-27T20:26:00.000+08:00

Sitting in front of comp for the entire day, with nothing done.

2011-08-23T23:18:00.002+08:00

Today's a day filled with expressionlessness. Especially after... School? Don't know what happened but I am just inexplicably down. Don't feel like talking, don't feel like loving, just felt rather empty about everything.

I know this phase will come and go, just like many other times I was like that luh. Just that I don't know the source. And there seems to be nothing to comfort. But knowing that God is with me makes me smile :) I suppose this expressionlessness is part of His plan as well, though I do not know the purpose.

'Been putting off doing tutorials for the longest time la -.- O Lord have mercy, I really hope that my attitude for this sem will change.. Regarding IA as well. To just commit everything into His hands. :)

Oh a completely different taste of feeling, my fan is not really very powerful leh! Or isit cos I'm sitting like 2.5m away from it, so I still feel rather warmmm! =.= Somehow my body gives spurts of warmness to the surface in hope of evaporating, I guess.. =P But too bad la no use leh!

Alright I shall get going. Have faith in God and continue to trust Him in your difficult times! Because suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
Romans 5:3-5

Bye nao! :)!

2011-08-20T19:24:00.001+08:00

Feeling like my toenails ain't mine cos it looks unnatural after I painted it .__.

2011-08-19T21:30:00.000+08:00

所需要的力量你天天賜給我，你恩典夠我用

Dear God, I hope that I can say this even at the worst of times! To give thanks in every circumstances, for indeed, You give me strength for each new day, and Your grace is enough for me :))

2011-08-17T22:33:00.002+08:00

God reveals His power through His word in the gospel :)
And I know that even thought objection and persecution still arise, I can trust entirely on God and His plan :)
It's such a wonderful privilege to just be able to see His plan unfolds! :D

Ok back to reading senior's lab reports, have viva tmr ._.

2011-08-16T21:52:00.003+08:00

God You shine even through the seemingly impossible times and adversity :)) And I just ask that You keep shining through!! :) Praise the Lord :)

2011-08-16T19:04:00.001+08:00

Why... Why.

2011-08-11T22:14:00.003+08:00

Hi people, how was your first day of school? :) I hope it ain't as weird as mine. Haha by weird I don't mean something queer happening; it's more like within me..

One thing and perhaps the biggest thing that made me so upset with about first day instead of looking forward to it with gusto was that there's lab. Super siann about it, but thank God His grace is adequate, it generally went fine. Plus, we ended early! So yay can go off like an hour earlier than the supposed time :)

Went to clem bookstore with a lab friend and after that had koi. All things were like mundanely fine!! Went home and to IVLE webby for 2nd hand texts, there was either no reply from seniors or negative ones.. Guess i have to go clem bookstore to get =] Abit =l about buying books la so ex.. But what need to be done ought to be =)

Went to nap after that.. Woke up feeling rather rotten and disturbed, don't know why! Have no peace in my heart till now. I felt that I should do something but I ended up doing nothing till now, a few hours later =/ O Lord have mercy!

Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day :) 希望你们的第一天是美好的!!

2011-08-10T00:20:00.004+08:00

Reflections on my holidays May-9 August 2011

I have only ONE day of holiday left as I am typing this. Well maybe not ONE, because I have to prepare for school (printing lect notes and all) tomorrow.

This holiday has been a change from the previous two, for I am quite totally out of the Rag scene. Initially I was thinking what would occupy my time then? But somehow things just did, and now it's nearing the end of the fun...

Well first up was Taiwan with my OG peeps :) I remembered we met up to plan our itinerary a day after paper, and the day after next we were ready to fly. Something like that right. Lol.

My first flight ever, first overseas trip other than M'sia, first boat ride as well. It was really wonderful to travel with friends, the shoppings and travellings and makanings!! :D

So after TW there's like meetups with friends like Lin, Lian, Bel, Faith, Bao.. It's like biannual meetups for most of them lol. Well I'm glad we still keep in contact anyways! :D

Hmm I do recall that some of my church friends had follow-up sessions for Alpha babies Em and BQ :) 5 sessions in all! It was edifying to learn about the assurances of salvation, answered prayer, victory, forgiveness and guidance,as well as growing tgt as Christians :)

Oh I had (still having) driving lessons as well! I finally made the switch to private learning as school is not only ex but difficult to get lesson slots. Thanks Bel for introducing your instructor, he's fine la. Haha.

So anyway, I'm going to take my test in Sept, am still rather unsure about my calibre :| Somehow I feel that driving during lessons and in real life is rather different. Like the parking, in real life there's not so much lines and helping curbs to guide. So passing the test might not mean one will be a good driver :\ Must practice loads hor. Really hope I can pass with one try luh, don't want to drag it any longer. But I still feel rather inexperienced!

Ok I got carried away :X

Another happening was Young Adult Fellowship retreat at a resort in JB! Don't rmb the name already, but it was fabulous!! Glad to be able to fellowship and know more people as well :)

Oh before the retreat, I worked for two weeks as telemarketer... It wasn't all that pleasant but a learning experience nonetheless! Which reminded me, I went for two job interviews this hols; one around beginning, one around ending of the hols. Hahha. Didn't get that two jobs. I sux at interview..? =|

I went for Regenerate BS as well, weekly unless I'm unavailable, at one of the benches in SMU :P Thankful for continuous source of God's word!!!

There was Regen FOC too, as well as Engin CF retreat. Thankful for my brothers and sisters in Christ :) Enjoyed the fellowship and prayers!

Visited Anna nearing the end of hols, twice! Once for meetup, the other was to give her the cage :) Glad for the 2nd trip for you both to know each other!

Of course there's the nature walks, and cycling at Pulau Ubin :)) And alot more!

Attended three birthday parties in 3 days, hahaha.

Met up with OG rainy sentosa day. Lol.

Went to NTU, thanks Bel the tour guide, and walked loadsss I was sooo exhausted after that ._. Hahaha..

Alot alot more small things which made my hols so rewarding and relaxing :) Truly thank God! Really glad that I have time to rewind and chillax before school starts. After such a wonderful holidays, the inertia is undeniably high to go back to school and mugging and stress altogether! But the Lord is my strength :)

Ahhhhh school! Enjoy it well it lasts I guess; cos working life will be tons worse, maybe :\

Quarry at Pulau Ubin :)

Ending my post here! Bye people, till next time! :)
0053 hrs

2011-08-08T00:04:00.002+08:00

For this semester, I really hope that my attitude towards school will change :) Want it not for me, but to honor God in my studies and my responsibility towards parents for bringing me up :)

So right now, I am reading about school stuffs. Like lab annex la. Very sian, but should. I will want to take my studies more seriously, especially since I'm like going on Year 3 cannot noob noob one don't know anything!

Must really rely on God because I am absolutely going to fall if left on own devices.

O Lord, have mercy.

2011-08-05T01:37:00.002+08:00

Hi :D I think I've been using phone for the past hour just idling around.. Definitely gonna miss such times when school reopens.

Today the CHE department had a talk for the Year 3s on specialisation and then mentor-mentee interaction luh. Along with some other friends, we were rather unfortunate for our mentors didn't come. So early (free) lunch for us, that was.

Still, I'm glad I went for it because from today I got to know about the different specialisation my course offers.. haha halfway there but still don't know what specialisation there are :X So anyways, there's biomolecular, microelectronics and process systems, I think... Only the first one appeals to me luh. Lol.

Either that or don't specialise is also an option :) Hmm.

I wonder will specialisation or like taking more modules of the topics that seem to interest me be an incentive for me to perhaps work harder or be more motivated luh. Thinking of FYP and design project they are like huge boulders to overcome.. Trust God, continue to put my hopes on Him.

This sem I'm overloading, and after talking to Tim during retreat I realised that I haven't pray and ask God whether I should take that mod, but exercise my own logics. Since gotta clear an arts gem ma. But given my results it really ain't so wise to overload hor. I'm sorry Father, I failed to consult you! :(

Gonna do tutorial balloting tmr (which is today since its close to 2am now).. Hopefully we'll get the slots that we balloted for :)

Prepare our hearts for school, O Lord!

2011-08-03T00:04:00.003+08:00

Today I went to Xiao Guilin :) the view was really scenic and awe-able. When sitting at this little cave-like structure, it was like the best seat to have to look at the majestic rocks that made up the quarry of xiao guilin :)

However, in midst of our conversations, i noticed the countless scrawny ants somewhere diagonally on the floor, inches away from my feet. We were soon fixated on the ants; either that or it was like inevitably/unknowingly our eyes just look in the general direction...

So anyway what I want to say is that many times we're just so caught up with the present -be it sufferings trials happiness etc- that we failed to take in the bigger picture behind. To surmise what someone told me from the recent retreat, we are like chess pieces on the playing ground, God is the player. Only He can see what He's doing, for He has the complete picture, overlooking the entire chess board. Being just chess pieces, we often only notice like our immediate surroundings and situations. Though it seems like we may be in the way of danger, it might all be part of His plan for greater good in the future.

So in all we should continue to trust God, and acknowledge that we just can't map out our whole lives and deal with everything alone. It is actually quite impossible, even if you really try. You might get temporal satisfaction and contention, but never is your joy complete without God.

Not trying to offend anyone, just penning down my thoughts :) Btw I typed this using my phone lol not bad hor =} Bye here and happy school reopening :)

He who does not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all- how will He not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?
Romans 8:32

2011-08-01T00:58:00.002+08:00

HiHi! 'Been long since I last updated you, Blogger. :)

Right now I'm feeling rather rushed and unsettled! Don't know why. School's reopening soon and I felt burned out already! :| Like this week it's gonna be rather packed. I declined a birthday invitation already, but it didn't feel much better.

I do hope that some of my friends are able to go for Playmax! It's gonna be a blast, I believe! Maybe that's one thing that's bothering me now: the availability of my friends and the willingness of their hearts!

Another thing is 7th mod! I hoped that we can talk more on this because the talk we had just now seemed rather short! Maybe Wednesday? :) Which reminds me, should I go for Regen bash if you're not going? It seems like without you then I am less enthusiastic about going! It shouldn't be that way, right? <=|

Don't know what else's weighing in my heart, but it really seems unsettled and on edge! I hope the retreat tomorrow will bring peace in my heart :) Trust God!

2011-07-24T00:28:00.001+08:00

Help me O Lord. Help us.

2011-07-23T22:39:00.000+08:00

Super angst.

2011-07-21T03:29:00.002+08:00

Hieee!!! It's 0330hrs now :X I can't sleep that't why I'm here :] Napped during dinner time, I suppose that is the reason...

Anyways, I looked through like some of my FB friends' profiles and photos! Alot to say yet don't know how to put them to words...

Eh maybe my brain cells are sleeping right now :\ I should probably zzz as I have driving at 0900!!! And after that watching Harry Potter.

Dear friends, Playmax 2011 is coming up! On 10 and 11 Sept, at St Andrews' Cathedral. It's like a super large-scale place to have meaningful fun!!!!

Here's the link if you want to know more about Playmax!
http://www.facebook.com/playmaxlive?ref=ts&sk=wall
http://playmax.sg/

I'll be delighted if you're interested to attend!! :D

Ok bye now hopefully I will sleep soon!

2011-07-18T22:01:00.003+08:00

Hi People :D I'm using bro's netbook nao cos gonna skype Amanda Ong Bao later. Heh. Downloaded/installed it yesterday it was like so mafan -.- HIE someone feel honored prease :D

Ok I suppose I might be running a slight fever but am feeling fine nao so here I am. Hopefully good enough to continue my plans for tomorrow :)

Had driving lesson just now, and I'm left with vertical & parallel parking, plus ramp and emergency brake, then good to go! :D Can't wait to drive for real... =)

Looked at phones just now at Westmall Singtel. Decided on 3G flexi lite plan but not VERY sure what phones I should get :|

Oh I have to wash dishes. Ciao!

2011-07-13T22:47:00.003+08:00

Going Regenerate FOC tmr, I barely packed =\ Plus I gotta wash the dishes, wash some small clothes, trim my finger and toe nails.

Anyway it's like a trend! Two nights in a row foul mood! Hopefully won't continue on... =\

Parry is huge :( I haven't exercise since... forever. Walking is not an exercise.

Ok bye naos!

2011-07-12T22:12:00.000+08:00

Oh why am I in such a foul mood right now! :(

2011-07-11T16:16:00.002+08:00

God will make a way

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness
You lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today

It's very comforting and encouraging that God is a personal God, who knows me inside out, who knows me BETTER than I know myself, that I can trust Him with my all, for His will is good, pleasing and perfect :)

Romans 12:1-2

2011-07-11T12:39:00.002+08:00

Yesterday my brother took a picture of mama and developed it [ok, printed it]... Then I realised I looked like my mama sometimes! Actually in photo I noticed I looked more like mama than daddy....

However, I always hear people say I look like daddy! I don't see much resemblance leh heh :P But hmmm, I think me and mama quite alike! Like facial expressions and all... =)

I guess when we grow up we start to look more alike to our parents... Actually when young also la, like perhaps look like them when they were that young age, but since when we see our parents they are at least in their 30s/40s/50s so we can't visualise them younger than that, unless there's photos.

So yep when we grow older, because older people they don't change much anymore, so they remain much the same in appearance. So yep, can see the resemblance and all!!!!

I felt relieved that I'm born to my parents :D I guess somewhere in my mind there still is a little doubt to whether I'm adopted or like are my parents now my true parents from birth those kind. Hahah very dumb right-.-'

Ok I'm blabbering; I didn't have breakfast and now it's lunch time, plus my nose's all weird both nostrils' blocked, and I'm kinda wasting my time away but when you are back it'll be different YAY ok I'm mad already bai :D

2011-07-08T01:03:00.002+08:00

Hi!!! Long time no blog, it seems :) Kinda forgotten about my blogggg....

So anyways, temptation! Seek God :))

“As for God, his way is perfect: The LORD’s word is flawless; he shields all who take refuge in him.” Psalm 18:30 NIV

Bye now :)!

2011-06-29T23:43:00.002+08:00

Hie! Yay for the firefox that my dad installed or something, now I can blog at home at my fav comp again :D Haven't for a loong long time. Anyways, today was quite a lousy day! It started okay I suppose, but I was scolded at work for listening to music (using earpiece) and for going on FB =\

And before that I was looking at the information about Nazi, so I was alil under the dark clouds. So getting reprimanded was like, worst. =|

Oh wells I will try to not let it bother me and not to bear grudge. It is hard though. There's like potential people to unlike it seems :|

However that ain't being Christ-like and I must remind myself again that everyone is made in God likeness and from the same mouth there should be cursing and praising. What I learnt in last sunday's sermon :) The ironic thing is that the people we vilify is made in the image of God, so it is kind of indirectly vilifying God Himself.

With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse human beings, who have been made in God’s likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers and sisters, this should not be.
James 3:9-10

The ironic thing, according to the speaker, is not about like from one mouth come praise and curse. It is, that we are praising and cursing the same object.

So I really hope that I will be able to abstain for saying mean things about others!

Alright I should go bathe. Nights!

-11:50pm

2011-06-29T13:18:00.002+08:00

Read an article (sort of) about the Nazi torture. It was ultimately gruesome and downright cruel. I don't know why would any sound-minded person do what they did. Plus it was the doctors who did those awful experiments. A professional that is suppose to benefit the people become one that tortured and scarred and inflicted purgatory.

But this kinda reminded me about doing experiments on animals though. As in when I was typing the above. Like for many things human uses it's tested on animals right. So why it seems okay for animals to go through that rather than humans...

Kinda got an answer or two but not very clear and fluent in my mind, so shall just leave it as that.

The link to the website will not be provided here (don't know to link to such evil), but if you want to read about it, can type The Nazi Doctors in google search.

Ok back to work.

2011-06-27T16:40:00.002+08:00

Physical blessings kind of only apply to us now on earth, so maybe it's only temporary blessings, that will pass away just like everything else on earth. However, the spiritual blessing that God blesses us with will be eternal :)

Praise for Spiritual Blessings in Christ

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ. For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he[b] predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will— to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves. In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace that he lavished on us. With all wisdom and understanding, he[d] made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he purposed in Christ, to be put into effect when the times reach their fulfillment—to bring unity to all things in heaven and on earth under Christ.

In him we were also chosen,[e] having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of his will, in order that we, who were the first to put our hope in Christ, might be for the praise of his glory. And you also were included in Christ when you heard the message of truth, the gospel of your salvation. When you believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God’s possession—to the praise of his glory.

Ephesians 1: 3-14

Dear friends, I really hope that you will be able to know this living, loving God that I know. Will pray for you all!

2011-06-27T12:10:00.004+08:00

Well hello there. Today was quite a lousy day, maybe I can blame Monday Blues for that. But well I guess maybe there's something more! Like someone not in Sg for the next two weeks. ._. But I have the company of Joejoe =) Heh.

So anyways, I've been calling people for slightly more than one week. It was quite a mundane task and alil boring at times. Thank God there's internet connection [my friend doesn't have =\ ] and I learnt (or acquired naturally) to slack at times. Hahaha.

Fortunately I'm working with friends so it ain't all so bad; like I have people to lunch with and people to talk to about a certain task of mine since we are doing the same thing. And maybe sometimes I have someone to go home with since we stay around the same area.

However I don't know how temporary this job is- supposedly it's two weeks but might drag. I don't mind dragging it, so that I don't have to look for another job. Hopefully that's the case, but if not, leave it to God :)

Anyway on saturday I went for this training at SYFC, it was about this event happening on 9 and 10 Sept. It seemed so amazing and cool, I hope that I can bring friends to come as well. Ok lunching now, will blog about this event another time, I hope!

2011-06-23T10:35:00.002+08:00

I don't know is it I petty or what leh. Just now I chatted with this classmate and it was okay... After awhile it just turned sour (on my part) and I was recalled of how the previous chats with that person (during school times and all) it also ended like that.

I don't understand why we can't seem to chat without getting on my nerves. I think I never get onto his la. Seriously.

Well thankfully not that I have to chat with that person or even see in the future so it shouldn't really matter. Guess it was just the recalling and the why part that befuddled me. Simmer yo KX nothing to be angry about haha.

Ok bye nao!

2011-06-22T15:49:00.001+08:00

Hi people, do you know that Singtel stands for Singapore Telecommunications? I don't know :X

Ok I'm rather bored at work so here I am. Stuffs I wanted to blog about a few days back- I don't feel like liao lolol. Okay bais =D

2011-06-21T14:20:00.002+08:00

Hie :D I'm using Blogger at work lol. Wanted to blog since a few days ago but the computer I use most of the time, is Blogger-unfriendly. I know I've said this two million times :X

Like it when there's like no one at the office other than my friends lol. =) Ok shall go back to calling people then =]

2011-06-14T20:41:00.003+08:00

Hiiie! I haven't blog for long time :X That's because usually I use the computer that is Blogger-unfriendly.

Well, I must say my hols so far has been rather chillaxing!!! :D Really felt like a hols =) But I want to work as well! Wasn't successful in getting a hol, until today! :D Thanks Sempai whom intro-ed this 2 week job to moi =) Well it's better than nothing, and if possible, might prolong the duration!

At least I feel more useful this way, you know :X Rather than slacking at sleeping till noon almost everyday...

What should I blog about? Abit lost. Heh.

Oh driving was not bad! I changed to private and lessons booking become much easier and convenient. Hmmm my instructor was not bad, but his way of teaching machiam like should practice over and over again, to get the hang of it. Today I turned and turned at the same place don't know how many times sia. Plus I drove the fastest I ever did in the 5 lessons I had so far [school + private combine], which is ~60km/h. My braking and accelerating still abit jerky at times. Plus I don't check blind spot cos I'm busy looking in front or doing other stuffs. Driving is so multitasky!!!

But I still enjoy the lessons, despite the bit of stressfulness. I find myself very unsafe on the road though! But shouldn't be so hard on myself la hor =D

Well new job starts on thursday! :D Can't wait... I think. Anyway random thought: I didn't know engin camp's over :X I think I'm very out of the engin happenings already. =]

Alrighty, that shall end my chatty entry!

2011-06-06T01:01:00.002+08:00

6 June 2011

But now apart from the law the righteousness of God has been made known, to which the Law and the Prophets testify. This righteousness is given through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference between Jew and Gentile, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. God presented Christ as a sacrifice of atonement, through the shedding of his blood—to be received by faith. He did this to demonstrate his righteousness, because in his forbearance he had left the sins committed beforehand unpunished— he did it to demonstrate his righteousness at the present time, so as to be just and the one who justifies those who have faith in Jesus.
Romans 3:21-26

2011-05-31T01:06:00.002+08:00

Zephaniah 3:17
“The LORD your God in your midst,
The Mighty One, will save;
He will rejoice over you with gladness,
He will quiet you with His love,
He will rejoice over you with singing.” (NKJV)

Oh God, please quiet my heart with Your unfailing love. I long for Your peace and forgiveness!

2011-05-28T22:43:00.003+08:00

Hiie :D I haven't blogged since the post in Taiwan. Lol. Now it seemed like TW was so far away, just a distant burst of fun :)

I went home early from small group outing :) Haven't been to Bontanic Gardens since Primary 4, with Lian and Ms Loke. It was quite chillaxing there.

Anyway I was late for my dance lesson today, and terribly upset was I! :( It's my fault though, for underestimating the time needed, and not planning ahead.
Throughout the lesson the thought of whether I was too stern/fierce with my student kept floating in my mind. And I wondered if more would quit because I'm such a joyless teacher :\
I guess I should try to input some fun and be less harsh more loving sometimes :]

Don't understand alot of things. But I guess there's so many things that we can't understand now.

Above all, I want to thank God for these two days. Even though they ain't the easiest happiest days, but my hope is in Him, all day long :))

Bye now!

2011-05-11T00:35:00.002+08:00

Hi to those who are reading my blog! :D I'm at Taiwan now :) Using the computer in the hotel my friends and I are staying in.

Thank God for the safe journey to Taipei :) And also for His abundance grace and blessing throughout.

Yesterday night I played Saboteur with a few of my friends! The rest went KTV lol. It was so hilarious!! :D

My days are filled! But quite tiring towards the end. My back ached loads just now, but it's fine after some rest! Maybe I will sleep soon, it's 0037 now =]

Sometimes it's hard to love, but Jesus says,
Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love.
1 John 4:7-8

And if we don't love our brothers, whom we can see, then how can we say we love God, whom we cannot see?
I can't find the quote for this :X

Ok going off! Tata!

2011-05-06T02:39:00.003+08:00

Just when I was trying to find solutions, leaning onto my own strength and all, I saw this:

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” - Philippians 4:6-7

Thank You, Father :))

2011-04-30T10:52:00.002+08:00

Hi :D I'm currently at a primary school lol surfing net sia! Relieved Von's class from 9-1030, now waiting for my next class at 1145. Ok I know I can read my notes which I brought or go down to eat breakfast #2 (#1 is in my stomach :X). But since got Internet to use I shall jolly well use it! :D

Well, recently my friends (and bro) are quite into the GE huh! I was initially apathetic but it seems quite interesting actually. My brother is particularly keen on this party (not the usual one though) and well I recalled my JC GP teacher said he will vote for opposition just because he didn't want the current one to rule again.

I didn't know that the rally are so agitated one leh!! Machiam what I would imagine for US or somewhere else. I guess because all along I think Singaporeans are quite chill one :X Then suddenly hear them roaring it seems different :O

Am rather relieved I don't have to vote this year (but 4 years later I gotta!!! Elections is once every 4 years right:X). Well eh I guess I should be more concern for my nation!

Alright now I'm gonna be concern for my stomach:X :P Hehe. Two more papers next week, and that's it!! I better jiayou though >=|

KTB!

2011-04-27T21:30:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow's my next paper!! I don't know what I'm studying :| Ok as in I can sort of understand here there but not entirely everything. Ok so why am I here :X Ok should bathe and get down to work. I'm actually quite gian about doing work, for some weird reasons. o.0

Hopefully the keenness to study last till next thursday TYVM.

2011-04-26T21:26:00.003+08:00

Using my brother's netbook now, cos daddy's using the usual computer in the super cold aircon room :|
Was thinking whether to get a netbook for the next sem and beyond... But the screen really quite small huh. The bars already took up like one-fifth of the screen already...
But the pro is the size because I can put it in my bag and hence won't lose it. :X

Oh I just realised that I can change the size of the webpage accordingly hahaha.

Well today is another studying day. Wasn't productive- only did two chapters today. And not like I understand what I'm doing somemore, why is it like that with this module?

And mind drifted to hols... :X Like what I want to purchase this hols. At Taiwan and Sg. Lol a whole list I tell you. :X

Anyway I'm praying about going for YAF retreat!!! I want to. Hopefully parents will agree =]

Haven't batheeeee :X Now ish 9:37pm.

Thank God for rest this period of time :) I sleep early wake late :X Machiam so chill like that -.-

I'm politically apathetic leh :| How. After this year must vote in GE liao hor, those born in 1990.

Ok bye now :] Tata~

2011-04-24T00:12:00.003+08:00

Just want to note it down so I remember :)

Yesterday marks the first paper of my exams! Well that morning didn't go so good as I had headache :| It was rather distracting and disturbing! Plus I still haven't understand like two chapters of the module that I was exam-ing later on... Shawn was very panicky :X Then I got rather bothered as well.

Decided to panadol and was afraid of the side effect (drowsiness) hitting me, before and during the paper. Thank God, it didn't come! Also, by His grace, my headache stopped just in time for exam! :D And also I was wondering to self, whether last minute cramming will help- and well, the answer is not a clear yes/no! Thank God that I decided to go to school earlier to study. Else I'd never know how to do that 2 questions!! :D

Anyway, I'm really thankful that God is being God :) It's like despite me sinning again and again He still is compassionate and merciful and gracious to me. Christ had paid it all when He died on the cross. He bore all of God's wrath so that we can have life eternally! :)

However, that doesn't mean I should keep doing wrongs :(( It's like getting used to lying doesn't make lying okay, if you know what I mean. And perhaps I'm getting used to doing some stuffs that are wrongs in God's eyes. Normalizing the wrong!

No KX no! So really hope that God will help in this situation. Pray!

***

Alright I have my notes in front of me but I'm using comp because I want to record down His goodness to me! :)) Like during this period of time when we're a mess studying for exam, He gives encouragement through His people! :) So blessed with all those quoted verses and heart-warming messages from friends! :)

Well my next paper's on mondayyy.. Haven't finish studying. But I'm not anxious about it leh.

Hopefully, I can say that I've done my best for every paper :] Thank you~

I love the LORD, for he heard my voice;
he heard my cry for mercy.
Because he turned his ear to me,
I will call on him as long as I live.
The LORD is gracious and righteous;
our God is full of compassion.
The LORD protects the unwary;
when I was brought low, he saved me.
Return to your rest, my soul,
for the LORD has been good to you.

Psalm 116: 1,2,5-7

2011-04-17T00:19:00.002+08:00

When I want something badly, I shall question my motive and reason for wanting. For me, or for God?

If it's for me, you sux kx. If it's for God, I can count on GOd to make all things good in His time. And He will provide when/if He deem fit. Since His ways are higher, I shall be assured and continue to hope in Him.

Ok byes :)

2011-04-16T23:23:00.003+08:00

I come to realise that comp I normally use can't post blog entries from this blog :(( Don't know why. Now am using another computer!

Today was quite a good day I guess :) My dance kids were quite obedient. Hopefully for tomorrow's class the students would not give much problem too =)

Anyway it was kind of settled. My dance teaching dilemma of whether I should continue teaching at southview primary school. Initially I thought it was settled that after combining that two classes together, Von would take it. I kinda assumed it to be that way too! However, maybe God has other plans? Because Von didn't want to take that combined class so I'm taking it instead. Effective from... like 5-6 weeks from now, after my exams and Taiwan trip.

So well, that means it's still the same, taking two dance classes- one sat 1145-115 (yes timing weird), sun 6-730. I should be glad about the income hor :) Just hope that I'm able to balance and work things out...

***

Last day of school yesterday! I guess I didn't have much of the last-day-of-school feeling, perhaps rather relieved. But that means exams' coming, and my first paper is next saturday! Spreading over three weeks, I have much to lament on =\ Not good at all, KX! Must give thanks for the time that I can use to study, and hopefully, I WILL study. Really must pray and commit studies to God, I know I can't manage it at all.

***

Had small group today :) The study content was on David and Saul- talking about how David inquired of the Lord and contrasting with Saul's seeking of the witch to summon Samuel... Like both met with problems and were at great distress, but David sought the Lord instead, while Saul still didn't repent and do what cause displeasure to God.
What struck me were
1. Each time David seek and submit to God, God would intervene and deliver him from his ordeal.
2. Everything is given by God. Even our faith. To be able to even want to seek Him, is given by His mercy and grace. We do not gain our spiritual life, but it is He who given us! We see from Saul how easy it is to fall away, to be authority of our own. But really, God is above all and He is the one that guides our steps =)

Other than these two there's other things as well, but I'm tired now lol. Anyway I guess when I'm in an ordeal I might not see God helping me in any way, but He is silently, but surely, beside me when I make every move. I just want to thank God for being there!!

***

I have great friends, encouraging and lovely! Yet I fail to appreciate them for that and set expectations for them, as friends :(( Hopefully I will widen my heart and love my friends, though sometimes it's really hard!! =( No offense alright.

We love because he first loved us. Whoever claims to love God yet hates a brother or sister is a liar. For whoever does not love their brother and sister, whom they have seen, cannot love God, whom they have not seen. And he has given us this command: Anyone who loves God must also love their brother and sister.
1 John 4

***

Ok byee thenn :] Maybe still got things to blog but don't know what haha. Sometime apt that I found from my friend's status in FB long time back;

"I wish for you my friend this happiness that I've found. You can depend on Him it matters not where you're bound."
(Chew, 2010)

Dear friend, yes I'm talking about you!

Till then! :)

2011-04-06T17:09:00.002+08:00

Yay I can finally blog here!!! :DD I created a new blog can -.-'' But one post nia. If I can blog here maybe I'll continue!!

Using school computer now, maybe that's why.

Again, I'm the slacky one when everyone else around me is doing work ._. That shows something, no? =(

Anyways, today was quite a day, though it hasn't end yet!
I'd presentation in the morning! It was rotten when I overslept AGAIN! T_T Absolutely hate myself sometimes. Fortunately, my group mates said to meet an hour earlier, so I was late for that not the actual presentation/tutorial. Somemore the other person also late lolol I don't feel that bad liaos.

Didn't know how presentation would be like; will there be Q&A all that. Thankfully, it's just like any other tutorial presentation we had! I guess the style of this tutor is a blessing in disguise- we have practices on a regular basis, sort of. Hehheh.

So yay, persentation down! The project is over yippeeyayeeooo =DD

Lecture was useless. Next.

There's lab! Last lab also!!! Got viva, so was abit worried. My previous attempts didn't go very well, that's why. =( Today's one was okay! Phew~ Hmmm I never do lab report before, free loader ttm leh :(( Sighs I think I ain't a good teamworker, so I should be more active in doing work!

Say say only hor, kx -.-'''

So two of the more important things down liao!!! However there's more to come. But deadlines will come and go, I'm looking forward to the 'go' part :X

Though this sem's not over yet, I felt that it was quite a different [cannot use as noun hor:X] compared to the previous 2 semesters. Thank God for my friends and people whom crossed my path! :) Am glad that mostly I meet people whom are helpful and really make an impact on my studies. Or at the very least [minimalist? :P], lifted the corners of my lips up with their presence! :o)

Don't know why felt like blogging quite a bit teeheehee :}
Haven't meet up with Lin and Lian for the longest time. Hopefully they are fine! =)
Bao's so busy this sem we rarely have time to meet up and chill! Maybe after exams. =]
One whole of an adventure this sem, it seems! Looking back, machiam school barely started yesterday and now it's coming to an end soon. I'm looking forward to the hols, though I don't have any concrete major plans, but I hope it'll be yet another [funner] adventure! :D

Whee, must be clearing the presentation and lab, make my heart lighter than usual lolol.

There's a talk later on, and it's on "Why is Christianity so arrogant in insisting it's the Only Way?" Suppose to invite non-Christian friends also; thought of inviting Lin/Lian but you all at NTU sia this talk in NUS heh, not very convenient.
Alrightyyyyy shall bask in my lightness!

Cos it won't last I know that :X

Byes now! =)

2011-03-22T20:59:00.001+08:00

I'm trying, I'm trying!

How many more days of this

2011-03-21T23:34:00.003+08:00

My left index finger feels sensation-ful I don't know why. Isit cos I ate the potato chips just now?

WORKWORKWORKWORKWORKWORKWORKWORKWORKWORKWORK

Sighssss will working life be worse than this.

2011-03-20T21:57:00.002+08:00

Feel so sleepy though I didn't do anything constructive today. I know it's not good to blame but it's nosie's fault :( I don't know why she like that so naughty keep leaking/blocking/sniffing/giving me trouble today :((

I got this mini beady eyes now, usually when I'm down with flu. Bahhh go away influenza!

11:00pm

2011-03-17T23:00:00.000+08:00

It's so easy, it's scary.

A letter to Blogger

2011-03-17T21:06:00.002+08:00

Hi Blogger,

I've been using you since I was 13 or 14 of age. Now I'm nearing 21. So it's about 7 years already!

Thanks for being so welcoming and in the years that I've used you, you didn't give much problem at all. =)

My older posts, my past, are in your archives. You have so gently kept those memories for me, and if I ever want to refer back, I know where to click.

Because you have been so faithful, so easy to use and so familiar to me (old friend already!), I never thought of using other browser (?) to blog. It's always you, Blogger.

You really provide a great platform for me to post any and everything. You are there, to record and publish my ups and downs. You have record of my hyperness, emoness, weirdness dumbness..

I hate to say this, but I was wondering maybe I want to befriend Tumblr. It's not your problem; it's just me. And maybe, I need a new space.

Will let you know again, Blogger. I really appreciate you :)

Till then,
kx

2011-03-17T01:24:00.001+08:00

We never seem to appreciate until it's gone.
We tell ourselves we will, but more often than not, we don't.

Please tell me what to do

2011-03-17T00:41:00.002+08:00

=|

2011-03-15T22:48:00.002+08:00

It made me rather sad and discouraged. But I will not falter for my faith is in You.

=D

2011-03-15T00:13:00.003+08:00

I drove in a lorry park today!! :D I meant ytd (cos now is 0013hrs). Tralala well I hope I'll enjoy driving and not panic which I did just now.

Ok all the besttttttttttt one more month!!! >< Ok alil more than that actually....

Sustain me, O Lord!

PMS

2011-03-13T21:40:00.003+08:00

Read up abit on PMS. Whoa can be so serious till need to see doctor ah.

Ok I got 2000 things to do in 2 hours. Whee.

Exaggeration alert. Lalala.

Something very interesting and true to a large extent!

=(

2011-03-13T01:16:00.001+08:00

You just proved your point.

By His will

2011-03-10T20:23:00.002+08:00

Didn't blog recently (kinda forgotten about you bloggy :X) because of midterms. And it seems like there's so many things to do ._. Like I still have two more quizzes instead of one (which I initially thought), then 1 group assignment (sian who want to be group with me :|), one group report 2 or 3 weeks later (haven't start, nice), catching up (I'm still at like term 1 stuffs), presentation (after the group report), weekly assignments (which I'm such a free loader for most =[), and that's just the basics.

Ok why stress myself out =|
Very sian only =(

Me going off byeess.

=)

2011-03-04T20:16:00.003+08:00

Because Jesus is able to fulfil all our needs and give us life.
So wonderful that the almighty and most high God cares about me =)
Hope that you'll come to see His amazingness one day :)

Empower us with Your Holy Spirit, so that we can do all things with Your strength.

?

2011-03-02T01:50:00.001+08:00

God, is that Your sign?
I won't know until I try :)

Thank You for helping me through the past week and the few days of midterms!
Thank you too :))

One more to go, let's go!

0151hrs

Dear Friend

2011-02-24T23:04:00.002+08:00

Well you probably feel lonely, you probably feel alone,
My heart reaches out to you. =\
I hope that your heart, will be filled,
With the One that will never leaves too :)

10:05pm

2011-02-22T22:05:00.002+08:00

TRALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALA.

Cut hair today it was okay! Fringe very ugly though but what's new!!! I'm bursting with energy now!! Hopefully channel it to doing work which I just started for today!!!!

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Buhbye!

祷告

2011-02-22T00:26:00.003+08:00

天父，请赐给我力量，陪我走这长远的生活旅程。
直到我能看到祢的脸，请让我要坚定着信念，全心爱祢。
丰耶稣基督的名义，Amen.

A friend told me that prayers move God, and God is able to move mountains =)) Thank God for His grace! He gives abundantly :)

So poor thing!!!

2011-02-21T17:59:00.002+08:00

My mama!!! She had nightmare then fell off her bed! Knocked her tooth away! =((( Now she looks so poor thing with cotton wool in her mouth :(

But she so cute heh :X Ok thank God for protecting her fall that she doesn't hurt elsewhere! :) Hope God will continue to keep her in His care =)

:(

2011-02-21T16:09:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I just feel like uttering bad words :((( Why does studies have to feel this way:/

From today's sermon

2011-02-20T21:34:00.002+08:00

By Faith, Not Sight

Sometimes I’m sad, I know not why,
My heart is so distressed,
It seems the burdens of this world
Have settled on my heart.
And yet I know . . . I know that God
Who doeth all things right
Will lead me thru to understand
To walk by faith . . . not sight.

And though I may not see the way
He’s planned for me to go,
The way seems dark to me just now
But oh, I’m sure He knows!
Today He guides my feeble step
Tomorrow’s in His right,
He has asked me never to fear
But walk by faith . . . not sight.

Some day the mists will roll away.
The sun will shine again,
I’ll see the beauty in the flowers
I’ll hear the bird’s refrain.
And then I’ll know my Father’s hand
Has led the way to light,
Because I placed my hand in His
And walked by faith . . . not sight.

----Ruth A. Morgan

Something from today's sermon! Find it very meaningful :) Thank God for being an everlasting, faithful and loving God =))

Hmm... ?

2011-02-19T22:55:00.002+08:00

Dance exam is a little more than a month away~!! 4 more lessons with my kids =\ I haven't finish teaching everything!

Plus they would have additional lessons with the pianist (during exam the music is played by one). They do not have all their exam dancewear. They do not know what is tested during exam! My kids don't rmb all the dance exercises, and the preparation position. T_T

Well I hope everything will turn out fine.

I should be fretting over my studies now shouldn't I. Well I realised I stop doing what I did in JC about my studies/hw. And I seemed to incapable of deciding which homework to do or what chapters to study all that =\ Not systematic anymore.

But well I'm thankful that I ain't seize by anxiety most of the time. Such a stressful way to live! But yep I agree there should be some stress so that I will do my work! But bearable pressure, I hopeee.

Don't know why I feel like crapping tonight. :| Shall bathe and do work (brain, you better be good).

Tata now!~

(11.05pm)

何等恩典

2011-02-17T23:49:00.002+08:00

以真诚的心.降服在你面前.
开我心眼使我看见.
以感恩的心.领受生命活水.
从你而来的温柔谦卑.
何等恩典.你竟然在乎我.
何等恩典.你宝血为我流.
何等恩典.你以尊贵荣耀为我冠冕.
我的嘴必充满赞美.
你已挪去我所有枷锁.
你已挪去我所有重担.
你已挪去我所有伤悲.
你的名配得所有颂赞

Thanks for sharing! =))

Patience

2011-02-17T22:43:00.002+08:00

Where is my new self? I find me reverting back to my old, unappreciative self again :( If my circumstances can't be changed (which I think most likely so), then I hope that I can change instead. Especially my attitude.

Don't know what's wrong with me. =| Maybe I should stop taking things with my strength (or the lack thereof) and start putting it under God's. Pass the reins of my life to God instead.

Kinda easier said than done.

Lord please teach me Your ways, and my hope is in You all day long =)

11:18pm

2011-02-16T23:14:00.001+08:00

Hear my voice when I call, LORD;
be merciful to me and answer me.
My heart says of you, “Seek his face!”
Your face, LORD, I will seek.
Do not hide your face from me,
do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
God my Savior.
Teach me your way, LORD;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.

Psalm 27

2011-02-15T00:30:00.002+08:00

0050hrs

2011-02-14T00:50:00.002+08:00

Thank You for being You, Father thank You for being the God of Comfort :)

:))

2011-02-08T20:26:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday! :DD

:(

2011-02-05T23:34:00.001+08:00

Ebro kept asking me on like a daily or once every few days [two?] basis to play Munchkins with him and gf.

Initially I just don't want to.

Today he asked again and I really have no time T_T Alot of work to do =(( Sighs I felt bad to disappoint him time and again =\

Hopefully he'll bring it to school and play with his friends or something.

The pimples on my forehead ain't there for no reason. I'm stressed indeed.

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2011-01-29T02:26:00.001+08:00

I don't know what to blog actually!

But yep want to thank God for everything that happens yesterday [technically] and for His grace is adequate =))

JIAYOU ON WE WILL SURVIVE ONE.

Trying to blog fast

2011-01-26T23:41:00.002+08:00

Ebro: (grinning) I cut a retarded hairstyle.
Bro: He spent $33 to cut that retarded hair!
Me: I can cut for you for free.

Why you anyhow spend money one!! That kind of hairstyle go any salon can cut for <$10.

Me to bro: Can you help me close the door?
Bro closed totally.
Me: Don't close totally!!!! Put stopper.
Bro: Why you want stopper, you think bad guys will come issit?

What's the link I don't understand.

I kan chiong spider now for my studies, nice?

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2011-01-21T08:37:00.003+08:00

4 Show me your ways, LORD,
teach me your paths.
5 Guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long

Psalm 25

3:19pm

2011-01-18T15:19:00.002+08:00

I'm blogging in school :X

Have a few hours till cheer practice later...

I think this morning a scary thought came to mind, and that is about my eyes. I've been wearing spectacles lately [yes I know, a first since sec... 4?], and that's because my gray contact lenses are so dry and uncomfortable!!!

And actually it ain't SO BAD to wear specs; though I still understand why I was so quite against wearing them over the years: VERY UNCOMFORTABLE! It's a different kind of discomfort to contacts because specs irritates the left side of my face, near the ear, while contacts dry my eyes out!!!

Thankfully recently specs ain't such a pain so I'm very fine with wearing them. Don't have to make a trip to the small kitchen sink to wear my contacts!!! I can just plok my specs before heading out, convenient! =D

Then I start developing imaginations of how I might spoil my eyes with contacts :| How detrimental I'm being to my eyes! They are under alot of stess, I believe. The more regular dryness I feel! Scared, I hope I won't be blind!

That's a terrifying thought.

Might revert back to contacts at the end of this month... Shall see how luh. It's more convenient to wear contacts [yes I know very contradicting cos two para ago I said specs is], especially when I go for dance or... exercise. Hmmm.

Lasik?! Perhaps perhaps! But not any time soon I suppose...

Ok I'm typing really loudly, shall end here! :)

How can I keep from singing?

2011-01-16T21:53:00.001+08:00

For I know I'm loved by the King, and it makes my heart, want to sing =))

A thought

2011-01-14T22:49:00.002+08:00

I was reminded today how it felt to lose things so I really hope that I will not have to go through that again =| But I ain't exactly a very careful person so I don't really protect my belongings, or maybe even be conscious of having them.

Thank God for the people around because they don't steal that's why I still have my belongings. Lol but I really hope that I'll be more careful so that I won't lose things.

Ok school school school it's really not that bad.

They are only as bad as you think of them to be. :)

10:08pm

2011-01-13T22:08:00.001+08:00

Still learning that feelings are not reliable! =)

9:06pm

2011-01-11T20:58:00.002+08:00

Lecture at 8am, woke at 8am. Don't know what to wear. Socks too high. Missed my bus. Due to rain and jam, reached at 9:20am. Listened for the next 30mins of lecture. Felt sleepy and can't absorb what lecturers said at all. Felt bored and wondered about buying textbooks.

But still, can't get happier than this :))

God works in amazing ways, I'm so in awe!

11:09pm

2011-01-10T23:09:00.001+08:00

It starts again..

It's 6pm now!

2011-01-07T17:56:00.003+08:00

I haven't come home with the sky still bright for quite a long time, I think. So it feels especially delightful today when I come home early =)

Watched so many movies recently! :O Just now SHURIKEN [OG outing] watched The Fighter. It's quite boring =\ I really thought I would sleep. But I think it's more interesting than The Social Network.

Tralala I'm still happy about the color of the sky when I come home! :D Must bask in it because for next two days it'll be back to dark night sky...

Was planning my time table for the upcoming sem and felt hmmmm. School's starting! D:

Want to pack my room later. Okaysss bye~